Key to this event was the research I was doing for
my book entitled Natural
Solutions, Women's Health Conditions. That
information provided a resource for the various physical,
mental, emotional, and spiritual dilemmas of being
female. Additionally, it is my belief that hormone
fluctuations were and are a big part of my state of
health and mind, and throughout the years, my hormones
have created a very exciting life for me, to say the
least.
The barometer of my thoughts, feelings, beliefs,
and experiences, is my body, and it is essential to
pay attention to it. My first period was at age eleven,
and I immediately developed fibrocystic breasts and
cramps, and then later, moodiness, weight gain, etc.
Doctors, over the years, prescribed various pharmaceutical
drugs and birth control pills, to help, but they didn't.
Even at that time, I was stubborn enough to try alternatives,
everything from vitamins, herbs, dietary changes,
yoga, and more. For example, I discovered that caffeine
aggravated my fibrocystic breast condition and stopped
that right away.
One
morning two years ago, I awoke with a very large,
angry tumor on the inside of my right breast. No kidding!
It happened that fast. All the study and research
for my book provided me with information but yet,
I was still scared. Literally scared to death! The
tumor was large and extremely painful and, no doubt,
a more dramatic manifestation of the fibrocystic breast
condition I had all my life. Interestingly, at the
time, I did not have any medical insurance and was
steeped in wholistic and spiritual approaches. Yet,
not only was I "steeped" in them, I believed
in them!
My sweet doctor's educated and experienced opinion
was that it was breast cancer. To be honest, I wasn't
so sure, yet I agreed to a sonogram. The sonogram
exposed it as a solid tumor, at which point my doctor
suggested I see his oncologist. He had breast cancer
ten years earlier and was giving me his best advice,
along with his fear. However, I decided on a different
course of action; one without the fear! I went to
a Naturopath, who talked with me for a couple hours.
He helped dispel my fears and together we decided
on a path of homeopathics. This restored my self-confidence.
My alternative approach was not blessed by my doctor
or other medical professionals or even personal friends.
Unfortunately, their fears prevented them from offering
me the emotional support I needed at that moment.
I made a decision they probably would not make for
themselves, and I understood that. Yet I wanted and
needed emotional support. The only one that came through
was my Angel Mother. She trusted everything I decided
for myself (even though it was probably not the choice
she would make for herself), and for that, I am forever
grateful to her.
There was a moment when I did not know whether I
had cancer or not, or whether would live or die. This
is an indescribable personal confrontation with life
and death, and I was ushered to the edge of my fear,
anger, doubts, and beliefs. At that point, I had a
very loud, vocal, angry exchange with my Maker in
the shower. I cried and yelled and sobbed and screamed,
"Why me, God?" No answer came, and I felt
empty. 
Shortly,
I realized the better question is "What is this
about for me?" I looked inside and realized that
I was over-nurturing to others and not nurturing enough
to myself. This was very much an emotional tumor,
and then I knew I had a choice about how to proceed.
In moments, an inexplicable feeling of calm and acceptance
came over me, and I eventually surrendered to love
and my God.
My tumor was emotionally related, and there's always
an emotional connection, yet there are also dietary
and environmental connections as well. What did I
do? I meditated, took natural herbs and homeopathics,
and most importantly used visualization techniques
three times a day! I made a choice, believed in it,
and followed through! This is crucial.
The most difficult aspect of all this was to go against
traditional practices, my doctor, mass consciousness,
and educated advice. To do so shakes your foundation.
Making the internal decision was the key. Faith (though
shaken) and intuition (connection to Spirit) guided
my actions. My tumor was gone in less than two months!
I am healed. My doctor said I was "lucky,"
though I know the truth is that I was proactive in
my own healing and decision-making. I completely believed
in my choices and trusted Spirit.
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NOTE: My book ~ Natural
Solutions ~ offers a practical resource
for information, alternatives, and natural
solutions to various women's conditions.
My best advice is to listen to your body,
trust your intuition, and believe in your
choice. Choice is very powerful. Beliefs
are even more powerful!
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